Anticipation gnaws at my insides
My gut clenches in raw nervousness
Could it be true?
Unplanned though it may be
The timing is still perfect
I clench, unwilling to release
What if it says yes?
Would I be elated, or wouldn't I?
Am I ready to accept a no?
It may break my heart....
I loosen my clench
And let go
A muted splash, collecting in a cup
Clear, odourless
Is that a good sign?
A dropper full of warm liquid
Three drops to the count
Big, full drops
Falling one by one
Agonizingly slowly
Into the tiny well
I watch with bated breath
As it seeps into the stick
And one purple line appears
I hold my breath
Every second seems like an eternity
And then..
The second line appears
A shade lighter than the first
But it is there, clear and strong
I am with child...
What I imagine a home pregnancy test would be like for a woman.
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The thoughts are so well penned up, the anticipation and the uncertainties ...
ReplyDeleteWelcome to my blog! Thank you for reading and commenting :)
DeleteCongratulations!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Susie, though this is imagined, your wishes are real :D
Deletewell reading above can make anyone feel like being pregnant :)
ReplyDeletenice one.
he he he :) Thanks gunjan!
DeleteYou did such a great job capturing such a private experience with words. I absolutely loved it!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words charleen :)
DeleteI have one (grown) child, but I sometimes wish I had more. It used to be something I really felt was something that should have been, that wasn't, but now I'm older anyway, and what is, is. Thanks so much for sharing this, Mixi.
ReplyDeleteThank you fireblossom for sharing your thoughts. Coming from a mother's perspective, I can see new meaning and more significance attached to what is already an incredible experience for a woman :)
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ReplyDeleteYou Think - I Act
Sorry but this comments not for this particular post but for http://fisheyes-meanie.blogspot.in/2013/01/i-am-responsible-for-delhi-gang-rape.html . I hardpressed my brains to remember when i had written it but i had not. Seems you are too on the same brainwave frequency.
Seriously need your support.
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Thank you for posting the link. I'll surely take a look at it and see how I can contribute..
DeleteThe ending was a surprise. You built up your poem with emotion and anticipation, leaving the reader to wonder ... well done! Thank you for visiting my blog :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you enjoyed it Loredana.. and I enjoyed your blog, so will be a regular visitor now on for sure :)
DeleteYou enter into the pov of the narrator well--and the sense of suspension, waiting, of a whole life on hold, comes through to the reader clearly.
ReplyDeleteComing from a poet of your calibre, this is high praise indeed :) Thankyou hedgewitch :)
Deleteyou sure don't need that photo, it is very clear what you are describing.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Marian :)
DeleteYou certainly made all of this drama seem VERY real!! :-)
ReplyDeletehehe.. thanks Helen... If all goes well, I might be doing this for real sometime ;)
DeleteYou created a mini-Mixi drama and also showed how difficult it is to ask a question when you wouldn't really know what to do with the answer.
ReplyDeleteHi aprille.. mini-mixi drama - I'min splits :D
DeleteAnd you've hit the nail on the head - what do you do with the answer when you weren't expecting to ask the question...
Thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts and wit Aprille.. hope you're feeling better now!
Oh, the concluding part was a big surprise! Wonderful...
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
I have nominated your blog for the Leibster Blog Award.
The rules of this award are at: http://panchalibolchi.blogspot.in/2013/02/thanks-for-leibster-award.html
Thank you so much Ma'am.... I'm at a loss for words... Coming from you makes this extremely special!
Deletethe suspense and apprehensions behind the test has been depicted brilliantly mixi ! as always a unique post :)
ReplyDeleteAw, thanks Maliny! Glad you enjoyed it!
DeleteAs a veteran of several home pregnancy tests (some positive, some negative), I can say that you captured the mixed feelings, the intensity of the experience, and the sheer agony of the wait for results. Well done.
ReplyDeleteThanks Lolamouse.. validation coming from an experienced hand means a lot! :)
DeleteYou captured the entire catena so delicately.
ReplyDeleteCheers :)
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Thanks Surbhi :)
Deletei was wondering if i should congratulate you or praise your writing or just keep quiet. thankfully, people like us can take our cues from comments and comment replies, especially for posts which we don't understand at all and still want to post comments. don't know why i am writing so much when i know you don't like comments.
ReplyDeleteenjoyed reading this one. your writing is absolutely absorbing!
DJ, my friend, the fact that you took the time to comment, and used the word "comment" about 20 times in your comment, means a lot to me :D
DeleteThank you for reading and commenting :)
Superb words specially the disclosure in the climax
ReplyDeleteOne more Liebster . Congrats .
Thanks Vishal :)
DeleteWow! You blew me with this piece. It reminded me of my own once-upon-a-time. Congratulations for the very deserving award!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Meenakshi :) and congratulations to you too for your award :D
DeleteBrilliant...
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Mixi :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Mixi :) and it is beautifully expressed :)
ReplyDeleteSai, my friend, this is an imagined situation :) It is not real as yet!
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