Waiting for Purple

Anticipation gnaws at my insides
My gut clenches in raw nervousness
Could it be true?

Unplanned though it may be
The timing is still perfect
I clench, unwilling to release

What if it says yes?
Would I be elated, or wouldn't I?
Am I ready to accept a no?

It may break my heart....

I loosen my clench
And let go
A muted splash, collecting in a cup

Clear, odourless
Is that a good sign?

A dropper full of warm liquid
Three drops to the count
Big, full drops

Falling one by one
Agonizingly slowly
Into the tiny well

I watch with bated breath
As it seeps into the stick
And one purple line appears

I hold my breath
Every second seems like an eternity
And then..

The second line appears
A shade lighter than the first
But it is there, clear and strong

I am with child...




What I imagine a home pregnancy test would be like for a woman.

Reposted for Free Verse on Imaginary Garden with Real Toads


40 comments:

  1. The thoughts are so well penned up, the anticipation and the uncertainties ...

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    1. Welcome to my blog! Thank you for reading and commenting :)

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    1. Thanks Susie, though this is imagined, your wishes are real :D

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  3. well reading above can make anyone feel like being pregnant :)
    nice one.

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    1. he he he :) Thanks gunjan!

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  4. You did such a great job capturing such a private experience with words. I absolutely loved it!

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words charleen :)

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  5. I have one (grown) child, but I sometimes wish I had more. It used to be something I really felt was something that should have been, that wasn't, but now I'm older anyway, and what is, is. Thanks so much for sharing this, Mixi.

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    1. Thank you fireblossom for sharing your thoughts. Coming from a mother's perspective, I can see new meaning and more significance attached to what is already an incredible experience for a woman :)

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  6. You Think - I Act

    Sorry but this comments not for this particular post but for http://fisheyes-meanie.blogspot.in/2013/01/i-am-responsible-for-delhi-gang-rape.html . I hardpressed my brains to remember when i had written it but i had not. Seems you are too on the same brainwave frequency.

    Seriously need your support.

    imresponsible.org

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    1. Thank you for posting the link. I'll surely take a look at it and see how I can contribute..

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  7. The ending was a surprise. You built up your poem with emotion and anticipation, leaving the reader to wonder ... well done! Thank you for visiting my blog :)

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    1. I'm glad you enjoyed it Loredana.. and I enjoyed your blog, so will be a regular visitor now on for sure :)

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  8. You enter into the pov of the narrator well--and the sense of suspension, waiting, of a whole life on hold, comes through to the reader clearly.

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    1. Coming from a poet of your calibre, this is high praise indeed :) Thankyou hedgewitch :)

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  9. you sure don't need that photo, it is very clear what you are describing.

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    1. Thank you so much Marian :)

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  10. You certainly made all of this drama seem VERY real!! :-)

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    1. hehe.. thanks Helen... If all goes well, I might be doing this for real sometime ;)

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  11. You created a mini-Mixi drama and also showed how difficult it is to ask a question when you wouldn't really know what to do with the answer.

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    1. Hi aprille.. mini-mixi drama - I'min splits :D

      And you've hit the nail on the head - what do you do with the answer when you weren't expecting to ask the question...

      Thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts and wit Aprille.. hope you're feeling better now!

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  12. Oh, the concluding part was a big surprise! Wonderful...

    Congratulations!
    I have nominated your blog for the Leibster Blog Award.
    The rules of this award are at: http://panchalibolchi.blogspot.in/2013/02/thanks-for-leibster-award.html

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    1. Thank you so much Ma'am.... I'm at a loss for words... Coming from you makes this extremely special!

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  13. the suspense and apprehensions behind the test has been depicted brilliantly mixi ! as always a unique post :)

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    1. Aw, thanks Maliny! Glad you enjoyed it!

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  14. As a veteran of several home pregnancy tests (some positive, some negative), I can say that you captured the mixed feelings, the intensity of the experience, and the sheer agony of the wait for results. Well done.

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    1. Thanks Lolamouse.. validation coming from an experienced hand means a lot! :)

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  15. You captured the entire catena so delicately.
    Cheers :)

    http://surbhibafna.blogspot.in
    Silly smiles...Take you miles :)

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  16. i was wondering if i should congratulate you or praise your writing or just keep quiet. thankfully, people like us can take our cues from comments and comment replies, especially for posts which we don't understand at all and still want to post comments. don't know why i am writing so much when i know you don't like comments.

    enjoyed reading this one. your writing is absolutely absorbing!

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    1. DJ, my friend, the fact that you took the time to comment, and used the word "comment" about 20 times in your comment, means a lot to me :D

      Thank you for reading and commenting :)

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  17. Superb words specially the disclosure in the climax

    One more Liebster . Congrats .

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  18. Wow! You blew me with this piece. It reminded me of my own once-upon-a-time. Congratulations for the very deserving award!

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    1. Thank you so much Meenakshi :) and congratulations to you too for your award :D

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  19. Congratulations Mixi :)

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  20. Congratulations Mixi :) and it is beautifully expressed :)

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    1. Sai, my friend, this is an imagined situation :) It is not real as yet!

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